I know what it is to lose a dog of that age as well. Hard to explain to anyone who hasn't!
I have the EXACT same issue right now. I know I'm not drinking today. But I did the same withing w/ my BP.
In fact, I forget what member, but someone, when I posted that I fell off and drank wrote something just like that "Well I guess you didn't have a BP."
Unclear!
Thanks for the post and stay strong.