....why do I care so much about this man and so little about myself? I am hurting so much. I feel like my dreams of us having a family together are shattered. He shattered them. I am sad that once he's gone he will sleep with someone else, and she will get the good in him. At least for a few months. He's good at disguising things. I wish I could just make him better! He is so far gone... His thieving and everything. He's going to end up back in prison. I feel so useless. He doesn't even seem like he wants sex anymore from me. It's all about the drugs...so sad and hurt. I hate this..