i apologize for not fully reading your post and reading it deeply enough.
first of all, people here will beat the dead horse to tell you moderation is not ok.
in my experience, i learned how to moderate my drinking! it's great, i don't get into fights (in person), i don't get mugged, i remember things i did the night before, i can still function enough to go buy more, i can still talk to women. yay!
i still throw my life away whenever i drink. i cannot stay in that frame of mind. i cannot take care of myself. i can not care of myself basically, living like that and my life goes to ****.
blacking out is obviously unhealthy and not taking care of yourself! it's a ******, abusive thing to do to your self and totally unacceptable.
moderation still is awful. just i'm here to say that what ever small rewards alcohol has, the payment is always much more than it's ever worth.
everyone want's to be cool & show they can drink socially, but it's a very stupid game to play.
people that really enjoy alcohol ruin their lives.
people who are the biggest prudes try to make some stupid statement by drinking.
don't listen to me, see for yourself