I fully understand that Scott .. As for "making friends" that will not happen no matter where I go
as I have been saying I am not a people person at all; hence I have one true friend here & She wants me out lol All the ones in my home town are from High School days; I have not made a "new friend" in over 15 years; so I don't see that happening no matter where I am at .. As I said I am at a crossroads; become a shut in but "live" here w\ a chance to make amends w\ her as a friend at the very least(she is being very kind right now) and have a chance to see my cats from time to time; or Go to my Home town and become a shut in fighting the urge to go out w\ the old crowd day in day out .. Ohh and no medical insurance in my home town to say the least . Which is a another issue I can not even Begin to get into ... 29 years of saying "I don't wanna deal.." Has just caught up w\ me ...