Hi Brightstar,
I also agree that Dandylion gave you great advice!
I'm sorry you are feeling so down. I was really weepy and cried all the time too after my break up. I didn't take antidepressants because I felt like I was simply sad, not depressed. Whenever I'd cry after my break up, I always felt a huge release afterward, like I was really working through the grief by experiencing and letting out the pain.
It was a completely different feeling than when I was was depressed several years ago. Like Dandylion said, depression is more of an absence of feeling.
I don't think being sad is a bad thing! You need to allow yourself to experience the loss. However, if the sadness feels overwhelming and never lifts, or if it starts to feel like a dull ache from which you never get a break, then you could definitely check out meds.
I say be open to anything. The world is full of support and opportunities for healing. You just need to know that you are not alone!!
Hugs.