It's funny Ona that you should add your last line, I was listening to that song on the way to work today. LOL. It is exactly where I'm at. Anvil, you hit the nail (anvil) right on the head, the odds of my outlasting this disease are slim. So why do I keep betting against myself? It's time to hit al-anon, what I've been doing isn't working and like I say, if you change nothing nothing ever changes.....so here we go!