I have zero babysitting. We are broke and could not afford the kinda of care I need for my baby. I wouldn't even feel comfortable leaving when he is sleeping.
My husband is not violent to me .. Never ever put his hands on me. But he can get mean without a doubt. His face can go very cold an say things that don't make sense and make you feel stupid or just attack you with his words very loud and mean. Obviously any kind of abuse is abuse .. But I know it's not him when this happens, 13 years of live with a bipolar Man U know the triggers or the onset of a episode . And the booze drives him in or further in a episode which he really doesn't see. It is so scary that he is drinking this hard at work and all I can think is what if he gets pulled over or loses his job.. We have already hit rock bottom .. I know it's not easy an he won't snap out of it overnight or possibly ever ..