Kandi, you are welcome in this forum. Friends and Families of Alcoholics is open to everyone, and you certainly have suffered more than your share of tribulations with alcoholism and drugs in your family. You can also post in the Friends and Families of Substance Abusers forum and in both, if you want.
You'll find support, and many of us who understand a great deal of what you are going through.
I am so sorry for what brings you to SoberRecovery, and hope you find it as welcoming and life saving as I did when I came a year ago.
What you are doing in taking care of yourself and your son is very impressive, especially given the history of addiction in your family. I hope you are very proud of yourself.
At the top of each forum, are permanent threads called "stickys" that you might find helpful.
Come back as often as you want; we'll be here for you.
ShootingStar1