But I have to push those feelings aside and enjoy the day with my son.
It is hard to fully enjoy life when someone I love is suffering. It wasn't until I put it in a different frame in my mind that I could do it better. My Codie brain always feels better when I am doing something for someone else. It's the way I'm wired. So if I begin to understand that if I live my life well and fully I am demonstrating (rather than preaching) HOW to do it, I can do it without guilty feelings.
You are teaching everyone around you have to live with dignity and grace when you live, laugh, and love.....through tough stuff.
gentle hugs
ke