Hi,
Thanks for posting. First off he's an alcoholic. Second:
We never fight. The only arguments we have had are about his drinking, especially when he has gotten aggressive with me
Getting aggressive with your is worse than a fight, it' worse than a bad fight, it's emotional and physical (if he's touched you) abuse. Emotional or physical, it is NOT acceptable.
I don't feel that I can leave him as he hasn't directly hurt me, but it is indirectly hurting and pushing me away.
Indirectly hurting you I would assume is hurting you by accident. Sounds like it happens way too much to be an accident, you are being hurt directly. You can control one thing, you. Right now you are doing the smart thing, learning about what to do, motivated by the fact that you are hurting.
I would start with asking yourself, and admitting to yourself, how bad is it really? How do I feel about it? How does it affect me?
Please continue to read up on these forums and ask any questions you have. Lots of great insight and support here.