Hey there buddy,
If I remeber right, your signature is because you felt you were walking on eggshells. You dont seem like that anymore. You seem much more grounded. I, like Central Ohio Dad, have a story similar to yours. My AW drinking continues to get worse. She was up to 1 1/2 bottles of wine a night before she switched to Vodka because there are too many calories in wine. So now the ritual is one or two glasses of wine before the Vodka. Most nights now are a blackout/pass out night. The only saving graces I have are my kids are out of the house and for a short period between when I get home from work and the first glass, its kinda like it was before the drinking began. I know we are not to give advice here, but if I had a three or four year old and had another 14+ years ahead of me. I would try my damnedest for custody make a break for it.
grizz