Relapsing yet again
It was all going so well. I was12 weeks sober, going to day rehab and enjoying it. So how could it all have gone so terribly wrong? I was depressed, suffering severe side effects I get from an unrelated medication and I wanted relief. My neighbour called round this morning to see if I was ok after the bad fall yesterday. "I am fine" I said but I should have said is "what fall?" Then my friend called and said "where are you, we were meeting for coffee" she said. "I overslept sorry," I said I've lost my rehab place, my physical and mental health are both poor and I feel trapped in a ball of fear and degredation. Where do I go from here? I am 53 years old, have had oesophageal cancer (alcohol related), have a severe depressive illness and have lost all motivation.
If anyone has dragged themselves out of a hole like this, I could use their inspiration.
Thanks