Originally Posted by
Tuffgirl 
For me - the hardest thing is the sense of choosing unwisely to begin with, but I know that is irrational even when it feels so powerful..
This. This is it. Knowing I chose unwisely, knowing I stayed too long, knowing I can't disappear and will have to deal with seeing him hurt them many more times and that I chose to marry him and have kids with him and now can't do anything to stop the runaway train that is his life and how it impacts the girls -- that is what is hard...
And yes it is pointless to be upset about bc I can't do a thing to change it. But you nailed it. It does feel so powerful.
And yes, HALT stuff going on for sure... Pollen levels are crazy and my body's response to it is to get congested, my chest hurts and I lose my voice.