I just relapsed I said I can have one glass of wine if I can have one glass then I can do this I can drink in moderation or only sometimes special occasions certain drinks etc. I said just a couple glasses but its been less then a half hour and the bottle is gone and I want more. I will hate myself tomorrow. I already do, I wanted to think I was different special and be a full of myself pompous windbag who thought I can do this alone but I can't it's caught up with me everyone told me it would i saw it coming I could hav reached out I could have skip this party when I knew I was in a vulnerable place but I didn't. I am stupid I am weak I have done this to myself