Curmudgeon, Electrical Engineer, Guitar God Wannabe
Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Where the mighty arms of Atlas hold the heavens from the Earth
Posts: 3,403
A song by Sister Hazel comes to mind called "Thank You". The chorus goes:
You were the one that taught me what I don't need
And I thank you, I thank you for that.
You were the one who brought me to my senses
And I thank you, now just leave me alone.
Feeling disgust for him is fine, I think. His behavior's been disgusting. But it also sounds like you're just over the threshold in terms of how he affects you emotionally. You saw him, you felt what you felt, and you simply sat with it and didn't let it eat away at you. And that's a huge deal, Madison. Huge.
So, keep going forward...
ZoSo