Seriously, when you don't know it can be different, you just don't know.
Yes, I know and I understand this very well. Your husband's response is just like something my father would say or my first husband.
"What are you crying/upset about? I told you what/how/should be done. My way."
Your punishment is to be traumatized and get the minimum amount of sympathy from me. My ex would probably talk at the dog within my earshot about how I let the dog get hurt!!!
More concerned that I "got it" because their way was better.
The trauma was a
lesson for me to
listen to them better.
(too many cuss words and still not enough for the anger)
And, so I have been sitting here wondering just what the hell I married? Not whom, but what.
Wow, that is a tough awareness to come to your mind.
Going to the conference (AlAnon?) you could
soak up all the positive get healthy energy you can.
Liz, I do understand. I am learning there is a better way.
I have been in this apartment for 3 years.
Just hung up one of my many paintings. Like I might stay a while.
LOL
I have always lived like I
just got here.
Never felt "at home". Even in my own home.
More awareness for me.
Action plan:
Make my apartment my home.
It is mine, to have it look as I please and do what I please (within the law
).
I know that, for now, I am not near action. And, I believe that it's Ok for me to journey on and see what my HP has in store for me.
I hear you. You have had a big revelation lately. It is certainly okay to do your program your way. And, I realized that sometimes "program" for me means "life".
Sending peace and serenity to you liz,
Beth