Old 06-11-2013, 05:17 PM
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Sueski
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: New England
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You struggle because this is HARD.

It's exhausting to not know which husband you'll be dealing with. It's exhausting to try to hold it all together, and with a smile, too. If I remember, you homeschool your son? Yep, exhausting! It's exhausting to know that the person you should be able to trust above all others will deliberately deceive you. It is okay to cry a bit to relieve some of this tension that is building up, and maybe you shouldn't fault yourself for being down sometimes.

Yeah, you have chosen to stay. I get it - I'm doing the same. But really, this is not an easy road, and let's face it, we have chosen from some lousy options. I can't be a Stepford wife all the time. I second guess myself, kick myself, wonder if I'm nuts, cry. Then there are the good days, and there is the love and the life we have built, and the hope that he will decide he deserves more.

Just be nice to yourself, okay? You don't have to be perfect.
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