I grew up with ideas like "you only live once" and "if it feels good, do it" lol I come by my hedonism honestly
ah but how interesting to see how that ties in with your use of the f**k-it response.
i grew up with exactly the opposite messages: to go for the long-term right thing; if it feels good you're self-indulging which is badbadbad, your happiness and pleasure should be way wayway down on the list....getting drunk was exactly the perfect thing in answer to all of that! the perfect "up yours!" response.