Originally Posted by helltoraise

During the last five months of our relationship he was all over the place. I don't know if he was in a mixed state or actually manic. We had one particular horrid conversation. I know it all doesn't fall under projection, but he was calling me a loser, saying I wasn't the right kind of fun. He saw women who he thought would be more fun in a bar. He thought we looked weird together on and on....much more painful hateful stuff I won't write here right now. My therapist said it was his illness spewing out. He also would say I was trying to trap him. I find it insulting that he saw sharing his life with me as a trap. There is a big difference in sharing and trapping. I have wondered if he felt he would be trapping me if he stayed knowing how ill he is....Maybe that is too much of a stretch and maybe he is just immature. It just really hurt because he was my best friend and supposedly I was his. I know people with bipolar who are not medicated can flip quickly in relationships, but it felt like he spit my love right back in my face.