Originally Posted by
mama2five 
thanks to each f you. it helps so much to hear. lilamy, Im at that point where there is no me. its all about taking care of him and his addictions first. ive lost me, there seems to be nothing left of me. all day its like a volcano. he wakes up and starts drinking and i wait for the volcano to erupt. its the most worry sometimes i feel like puking from worry.
You are still in there. You just need enough peace and room to be. To expand. I remember feeling after I left like I was living in a panic room somewhere in my center and not really inhabiting all of my body. And having the space to expand into being myself again has taken time but been wonderful. And I've seen my kids go through the same process.
I agree with Anvil. This is no way for you and your children to live. To wake up every day and walk on eggshells.
