It will get easier to do the things that seem painful but must be done. I've shed a lot of tears through this process...at the bank opening an individual account for myself, calling the attorney's office, at the attorney's office for my consult, at every Al-Anon meeting I've been to (at the first one before it even started!), etc., etc. I am stepping outside my comfort zone. I am doing the hard things to understand my options & myself. I am stronger for it and you will be too.
Maybe you couldn't make that call today, but maybe tomorrow you can. I have to let things percolate in my head before I can take the action, but that's okay. When I take the action, I know I am ready.
I love the quote Recovering2 provided...heard it before & think it is great every time. Keep coming back here...post, vent, cry, and there are some laughs too. You will get stronger, you will figure our your path, and we will make sure you do not have to do it alone!