I don't react emotionally to him at all... Guess I did not make that clear... My response simply was that he could be with the girls per the parenting plan on father's day.
The emotions I feel are just being shared here-- not shared with the girls and certainly not expressed to him...
If that wasn't clear I apologize...
And yes, I should know it's nothing personal toward the girls but as a human being with emotions and a mother who hates to see her kids hurt, I guess I have not yet mastered the art of not having it make me sad to see the girls be disappointed...
It used to be that it was mostly me who was let down. That I haven't cared about for a long time.
Now he's moved on to hurting the girls and that DOES hurt. I certainly won't argue that point with him or let on, and sometimes I shrug it off but the enthusiasm from my girls this morning and the obvious longing for a dad who they do not have just pulls at my heartstrings...