Originally Posted by jkb
In my pictures some I am a non-drinker but, others I am still a drinker.
Yes, I understand this. In the pictures in my head I am still 20...but it's not so in real life.
Originally Posted by jkb
I guess what I question is do I really want to give up the lifestyle that I had for so long.
Good question and one only you can answer. I drank long after I knew what it was doing to me on so many levels, because it was worth it to me. I took the tradeoff. I did it for as long as I could, until I literally couldn't any more.
But things look so different depending on the vantage point. Nothing was real when I was addicted. Things made sense that don't make sense to me now. When I look back, I literally feel like I'm looking at a different person. Like a movie. Like it wasn't me.