I'm drunk but throwing alcohol down the toilet...
....was the most empowering thing I've ever done.
I got to nearly 2 months and I just had to let that voice back in. Yeah, even though I only had 6 weeks, I thought It would be ok to start skipping meetings (cos I had to concentrate on my work), stop calling my sponsor (because she was too busy), stop thinking about step work (because if I'm not in touch with sponsor, I can't possibly read the steps, right?) So I was ok until I got to nearly 8 weeks and then...well...you know what happens when you stop working on your recovery.
I was wrong. Alcohol is like my abusive father. He kept beating my mother and made her keep away from her family. Well, alcohol, you've abused me for the last time. You;ve kept me away from meetings, my sponsor, the steps, and - most importantly- sobriety. But for the last time. Have fun in the sewers, sweetie. The toilet is where you belong.