Thanks Jess. I really am feeling better. I have never had to work this hard for sobriety in the past. I am actually kind of amazed with myself that I have not caved yet. The Addictive Voice is getting louder but that just makes it easier for me to challenge it.
I see my own actions in others' posts. I have been looking at the newbie forums where people are fresh from the embarrassment of addiction and I can imagine myself in their place if I pick up the first drink. I really wanted a drink yesterday but somehow managed to make it through the day.
I have so much work (and bills) to catch up on since I have been neglecting my job for the last 6 months. I am grateful to be sober (and without a hangover) so that I can begin the hard work today of meeting work deadlines and caring for my family and home. I haven't felt a sense of accomplishment in a few months, so I am hoping it will become my new "high."