I can't tell you how right you are. One thing I have learned is that you can't control other people. As far as driving, that won't happen, unless I pay for it, and I won't. Yes everything is chaotic, well at least my feelings are. And you are so right, she abandoned me a long time ago, and now physically too. I look back, and there are times I wished I had stuck to my guns years ago, and this would have had a closure-one way or the other. Well, now I have to. I'm just simply worn out from this behavior, can't do it any more. Don't want to. My mind tells me: ITS NOT GOING TO GET BETTER. The heart , on the other hand, well, you know.....
I really appreciate your words, what a great incentive, and I don't hand out praise easily-thanks