Originally Posted by
lillamy 
And I'm trying not to drown in sh*t.
Oh you don't want to go out this way! What a sucky way to drown! And it would make the news - embarrassing for your kids...
Lillamy, you are an inspiration to all. When it seems the sh*t has piled higher than your eyeballs, remember how many lives you've touched by sharing your experiences. That has to count for something, right? To me, it seems that this is what life is all about. Sharing our experiences and gaining wisdom from others.
Life is too darn short to beat yourself up over your choices. Shoot, I just made a bad choice myself (ok, so it only lasted two weeks, but still...) and you know what? That is living! Can you imagine what an arrogant human being I would be if I always got it right?! I would never learn anything, either.
Just keep doing the next right thing. Let the past stay right where it is. Go enjoy today, and this glorious Alaskan sunshine. Laugh with your kids. Be grateful that today, you are the person you are.
Peace, friend.