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Old 05-26-2013, 01:28 AM
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Jeni26
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Weird....my AV is in FULL FORCE today, it was quiet all day yesterday. Not sure what's going on here.. I'm off to see my Dad later, smoking has left him seriously ill. Now there are lots of emotional issues surrounding me visiting him anyway...I'm ok with tucking away my feelings for the time being and I don't feel in as much turmoil as I thought I would... So why is the AV choosing today to try and get me??

Even when I've made that commitment to never smoking again, I was almost out the door and on my way to buy a pack this morning. It still tries to scare and bully me...'you won't cope with today Jen...' That is NOT FACT!!!!

Am I supposed to be reasonable and in control during these AV attacks? Well, I'm not. They make me so bloody angry!! And I hate anger, so then my AV tells me I shouldn't have to deal with such a destructive emotion...so why upset myself when there's no need....

This is total madness.
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