this is where i get very confused about the obvious contradictions, RDB.it seems when people drink despite their BP, the only real available "answer" seems to be that the BP was not "right" .
because if i understand correctly, the proper BP would simply not "allow" you to drink.
it seems, then, just like any other time a so-called firm and committed decision was made.
yes, i understand i haven't understood the difference.
but it seems YOU need to understand the difference between the BP and another ironclad-well-reasoned decision, if you're going to go forward with a "new improved model of the BP."
so maybe it would help if you could articulate that, at least to yourself.
as i read your post, it sounds not really any different from the AA-thing that goes a bit like "well, you drank again because you didn't work the program right", if the BP needs to be adjusted because of going back to drinking.
and bi11fish, yeah, actually i thought my way into at least staying quit many times, but it didn't pan out for me, either. not in and of itself, not just thinking and will.