Now, I know 1 leads to 2 etc...But you can put that behind you now an start again, you will be ok, I know its been 23 days off opiates for me and I want a pill so bad today its driving me crazy! I havent relapsed yet and I pray to God I dont but I can imagine how you feel. It has to be such a downer after you have came so far....Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, an dont drink again