I was blind until I got sober. I couldn't see that problems were rolling in on top of problems until I was crushed under so many layers. Now I'm starting to feel that I can roll up my sleeves to start cleaning up the mess. Some of the mess isn't pretty ... some of it is really nasty ... but it's my mess and I'm going to put right brick by brick. I don't know if that helps but it's what's been chattering around in my head since early this morning.