true. when the action is correct then the finality doesn't matter.
I deserve better, but Im not gonna go hunting for it.
This is the first time I haven't had a rebound.
Why the crap does he still come sit next to me in church? its the only boundary I haven't laid.
I keep hoping something in the service might click in his brain and don't want to wish him away from that. Its the only thing he is doing right.
At the same time "just because a mouse lives in a cookie jar, that does not make him a cookie"
Why haven't I let go yet?
I don't talk to him or anything outside of church. even then its like 2-5 min after, tops.
I don't try to make him change or call him. I did fail and sent a reply to his text today.
He said is there anything he can do? anything at all??? I simply replied "Joshua 24:15" He has it memorized I didn't need to spell it out. In one word and two numbers I told him where to go...
I think he got the hint cuz he shut up.
I can't really say that I am unhappy in life, or craving love. I can say that when He contacts me I want to be a lantern to him... Even if it goes in one ear and out the other. I want him to see me blessed and happy and hopeful in my future and that I am still sober.
ego. pride. the joy of being pursued.
or is it wrong to want to be a light in the darkness??? I just don't know.