Hi Ryan,
I remember you. Glad you made it back. To me this means you haven't given up on getting sober or given up on yourself, of this you can feel good.
MemphisBlue made a very good point about telling your story of relapse to help others and perhaps help you to clarify what you did or didn't do that contributed to the relapse.
I know early in sobriety I was very worried about relapsing because I don't think I could make it back if I did so I would read stories of people's relapses to help understand what is behind relapsing. Nearly 2 years sober I have so much gratitude that this time around I've got it.
I understand you must be feeling like crap at the moment but when you are up to it tell us your story.
All the best
CaiHong