Without a doubt I'm drinking too much, too often, and for the wrong reasons at this point in time. I'm lost to my own life, and am unable to move on to a better place. I'm stuck in a dead end job that won't support me for the rest of my life, haven't completed my education, and feel utterly alone in the world. And I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I'll end up drunk one night in the not too distant future and completely give up on life.