I'm sorry to hear what you're going through Ryan.
I just got my first DUI and can relate with the shame and guilt.
Try to stay strong and find a way to forgive yourself. We all make mistakes.
Maybe you can think of it as the last sign to stop doing this to yourself.
I was trying to think that at least I didn't hit anyone or wake up from hospital paralyzed...
If I haven't been arrested I would be still drinking and driving and who knows what could've happened...
Take it day by day and you will be ok.