TG-
I am being brutally honest right now... this is what I am thinking...
Yes I would love to take the lower paying job BUT I have so many "what if's" and those are making me think that I should stay and be unhappy professionally but at least have certainty of how to pay everything each month.
That's cowardly isn't it?
I feel like I am doing with work what I did with my marriage-- I am afraid to leave something that SUCKS because at least it is familiar...
What is gnawing at me most of all is this voice in me saying "how selfish can you be WTBH to even THINK of taking a job paying $15,000 less all because you want to teach a different subject- it's NOT about you-- it needs to be about your kids".
I don't know if that's common sense, if that's my ex's voice, if it's craziness or what but THAT is what is causing me the most distress.... I am listening to that voice and having a hard time arguing with it... Is that crazy?