Hi Talana
Sounds like a big call.
I would have avoided something like this for a while.
Do you have to go? Can't stay home?
Have you spoken to your husband about this?
Do you have any real life support?
Can you keep logging into SR?
If you must go, the main thing is to not give into the lies that only one won't hurt, or that you can 'start again' after the holidays.
It probably won't be as pleasurable as you'd like, but you can resist and not give in.
Plan ahead as much as you can. Start planning now.
Do other things - do you have kids? spend time with them - make sure you have other things to occupy yourself with in the evenings.
D