I've been sleeping like a baby lately...and suddenly tonight my mind wants to come haunt me again. All of my guilt, anxiety, worries, fears....have come to visit. And I'm freaking out.
Normally I'd go for a drink. But that will never be an option for me ever again. HOW do you stop obsessing over past guilt? Stop trying to find a way to "fix" things you've messed up? I've managed to convince myself in the past hour that my kids are going to hate me when theyre older because my husband wants a divorce, because of my drinking. Really, why cant I just think about now...the moment that really matters. My kids are safe in bed, certianly not mad at me. And divorce papers aren't even filed for me to be driving myself insane thinking about the outcome. I want my family, I want my marriage, I want my kids to have the family they deserve.....
HOW DO I GET OVER THE GUILT???
