I too used to go back after quitting for a couple months. I could never pass the 60 day mark because I would foolishly think "well if I could stop for that long I must be fine" In my heart I knew I wasn't but my addiction wanted alcohol and I would rationalize going back. I eventually realized I couldn't do it alone and joined AA. I have more time sober now than I have in a very very long time. Be gentle with yourself. You are here and want to stop. There lies strength in coming back and telling on yourself. And if anxiety is your worst consequence of this relapse, be grateful. It could have been much much worse. And it may be if you do it again. You can start over today
