Thank you, Tamerua & Artsoul.
I will follow the May link.
My addiction did not make me wait for too long. It's Monday. Generally I would not talk to my mom unless I am drinking, but this time I had a long conversation with her (sober; just now) & surely, here is my addiction kicking...I mean, conversing with someone is A TRIGGER FOR me. So, I thought I'd write about it, in order to put it on paper so it loses its potency (as I tell my clients...)
Oh my god, how f.....p is that! Not being able to converse unless drinking! I mean, I did well, but I started having the thoughts, almost close to obsessive while talking to her.
I can't even imagine how obsessive the thoughts would become if I talk to someone who I am less comfortable with!