I'm sorry for your loss. My mother died 4 year's ago and I drank through it, it got me to sleep but each morning but it delayed my grieving, it's now hit me in the last year of sobriety. Please don't drink. It sounds to me like your mum meant the world to you, your dad's 30 year sobriety medal and her love for you are saying to hang in there. Thinking of you
