Soberlicious has pointed out several times how she looked at the worst case scenarios in her head and knew that even THEN, if those most terrible fears she had would come to pass, she would not drink.
Fluff's posts about this helped me a lot to understand what the BP really meant. I mean really, REALLY meant. Being fully committed to never drinking again and never changing my mind meant my BP is air tight and irrevocable. It's done and cannot ever be undone.
I am having a very sad time right now involving one of my children. My AV has been all up in my face, screaming bloody murder at times but that's just the way IT is. I will never drink again and will never change my mind. IT is a pain in the @ss right now but IT has no power over ME.