Keeps telling me I'll be back, I'll miss him, I can't live without him...geez, now that I've broken up with him, I'm seeing what a dysfunctional relationship it's been!
I like the idea of 'breaking up' with vodka, because I framed my sobriety in exactly the same way. I described what I did along exactly those lines in another thread.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ined-long.html
Maybe what I did can help you. Believe in yourself, and that you deserve to be the person you know you are. Best to you, Sloefire, and keep posting.