Originally Posted by
onehigherpower 
well if things were truly fair
I would deserve a hot place in hell
thanks to being sober
I'm not heading there today
I'll buy you a ticket to Philly - you can be there tomorrow.
Seriously, if you're not happy with live Desperado, it might be time to let go of whatever's holding you back. Sounds like you're going through a tug-of-war with yourself...doesn't matter which side lets go, either way you're a winner.