Originally Posted by
bigsombrero 
Who says you have to do this? The police?
There aren't any rules out there. However, there are plenty of pitfalls - stay focused on your recovery, but remember you're not locked in a cage with a 12-step program. Do what makes you happy, and find out what it feels like when you do those thing in a sober state of mind. There's no test at the end, I promise.
HAHA! Thanks, you made me laugh now! There's no test!
I think what is hitting me hard right now is that everyone around me (yes, those AA peeps who are the only friends I have these days) keeps telling me about just about everything in my life: acceptance is the key - just accept things as they are, don't fight it.
I don't want to accept things as they are. I want something else than what I have. I hate my life. And no, I am not drinking. Don't worry.