Thank you for your kind and welcoming messages. I appreciate the support. Dee and Hevyn, I think that your advice to try to focus on myself rather than on my relationship is spot-on. I certainly want to make things right in my relationship, and I believe that things will be better with time. At the same time, I think I may be worrying about my relationship as a way to avoid worrying about everything else I need to be doing for myself right now. I'm pretty disappointed with myself right now; I've known in the past that I don't make the best decisions when I drink, and I even stopped drinking for about a year. But when I moved here, it was easy to chalk up my past experiences to being young and stupid, and I didn't think that having a drink or two out and about would be a problem. Obviously, that is not the case. I just feel really embarrassed and stupid at the moment. I know that the only thing to do is to move forward, but I feel really sad at the moment.