Hi sweetie, this sounds like 1) social anxiety, 2) habits that have been created and reenforced over time. Do you have a therapist or pdoc? A therapist will help you untangle the intimidation factor while a psychiatrist might be able to help you figure out a long term pharma solution if therapy alone doesnt work. Those social anxiety quizzes and forums are amazing! I have some social anxiety that has gotten worse as an adult. I am fine at work because I am basically 'playing a role' but unless I am 'off' I have a hard time opening up. I know what you're going through. Do some more research, there is a lot of good (well, and bad, admittedly) info about SA. Let us know what you find out!