I think it's pretty natural to want answers when you're worried about a health problem, Bill.
It would be nice if we were all beatific Gandhi types, but that might get a bit boring too
I'm not a saint, but I am sober and I think I do a bit of good in my life. I try to improve but I also like myself warts and all.
That seems a reasonable sort of perspective to me
Hope you get some of those answers, and some good news with it, really soon
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