Thanks, Hevyn.
I started crying when I read your post. I really did not choose to drink & get drunk. My father is an alcoholic. My Grandparents figured out yesterday that I was drinking & they are disgusted with me. I am ashamed. I was talking to them on Skype drinking my drink in a tea cup. They confronted me & hung up on me. But I wished I COULD talk to them sober, I wished, but I can not!! I can't tell anyone & can't go anywhere in AA/NA in my town because I am ironically a Substance Abuse Counselor! Please, support me, please someone tell me how do I socialize & have fun without drinking??