Congrats on another day sober! Self-pity can be an easy thing to fall into if we spend too much time in our minds.
I know this is a corny AA saying, but I relate a lot to it:
"The days where everything goes right and I don't drink is a good day.
The days where everything goes wrong and I don't drink is a great day."
I am grateful that "great" days are now becoming few and far between.